Anyways... Let me just start off by saying how horrible I am with keeping in touch with my family back home. You'd think after three years of being the long-distance family member I would have become a pro at keeping up with people, but sadly I just get worse. I rarely talk to my parents unless they contact me first and I talk even less with my in-laws. I'm such a bad daughter. I just get caught up in our little world and forget everything outside of it. I feel bad about it, but I am grateful that they seem to understand. Besides, they have lives of their own. Which seem to be a lot more exciting at the moment. Lots of changes it seems. First off, my mother is getting pretty serious with a guy. I'm happy for her, but I don't think it will ever not be weird that my parents are divorced. Or that she's in the "dating scene" and I've officially become the old married woman of the family. I'm hoping things work out for her. She seems really happy with him and that's all anyone can ask for. My younger sister graduates college (with an associates) at the end of May. It's crazy to think she's where I was right before I got married. It's even more strange since she's in her first real adult relationship and moving in with the guy! And they've already begun the marriage discussion. It's actually quite surreal to think about my baby sister living with a guy let alone getting married. But she's the age I was. Actually older. Crazy. My father and his new (as in recently married) wife are moving about an hour away. That's going to make holidays interesting... all of my families are going to be an hour away from each other. But I can't think about that stress right now. And my older sister is...well, how she always is. And that's all there is about that.
With all of this exciting and life changing news going on back home, I can't help but feel a little jealous. I'm ready for something new and exciting (I guess a cross country move didn't do it for me). I suppose I mean something new and exciting for me personally. Like a new job opportunity, finally going back to school, or what I'd really like....a baby. :) lol I guess I just feel like I'm falling back into the routine I was in in California. I don't want to stay in the same "place" I've been in for the last three years. Not really doing anything with my life. I know I just need to get back to school that way I can at least say I did something. While the decision of what to go back for has been an unimaginably difficult one, I feel like I'm getting closer to deciding. I actually even have a tentative online university that offers degrees in both of the fields I'm considering and it's relatively inexpensive. I am just at the point where I need to make a decision and not be afraid if it's the wrong one. At least it will be a step forward. A degree in something, even if I don't end up in that field, is more recognizable than no degree.
I always thought that college and career were going to be the "easy" decisions for me and finding someone to spend my life with was going to be the impossible task. Funny how life works out, isn't it?
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| Forever posing with a coffee mug... |
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| Oh spring... |
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| I'll take a little sunlight with my vodka please. |
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